Don't think, just worship
One must sacrifice the desires of the flesh in order to worship in Spirit and Truth
“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
One of the main takeaways from Nehemiah’s testimony was the idea that when work becomes worship, this is when one embraces their calling.
Don’t think, just worship.
I’ve told this time and time again to many a friend and tried my very best to carry it out. Yesterday while rock climbing with a new friend, I found myself constantly praying in the name of Jesus, reminding myself that worry was useless when quick decisions needed to be made.
A few months back I read the book, “Relentless” by Tim Grover, the personal trainer to Michael Jordan, Kobe Bryant, and Dwayne Wade and the killer mindset was cemented by a harsh truth seared on the painful reality of what it takes to get to the place of reckless abandon: “Every failure brings you closer to the place of not thinking.”
Don’t think, just worship.
In other words, don’t think, just make the proper sacrifices to the proper good.
This morning I worried in anxiety, tossing and turning thinking, “How am I going to learn chemistry, teach it, prepare for a show on Sunday, write and edit my Substack/ YT posts, and also deal with the burgeoning exhaustion and doubt coming with finally trying to embrace my calling?”
I woke up at 5 AM to take a shower and pray, ready to spend the next few hours writing and learning chemistry so that I could teach it to the classroom I’ve been substituting.
I came back exhausted to my room, layed in bed thinking, “I’ll just rest my eyes for 10 minutes and then get to work”.
An hour and a half later, I felt as if I couldn’t move. I was trembling, ready to break down crying. I just couldn’t do it.
The Holy Spirit comforted me and told me that I needed to relax and that I was going to be fine. I thought, “How am I going to do any of this? Everything seems impossible and I feel like a failure.”
He said, “You have what it takes, for the pain of the last 30 years of your life will serve as the fuel to get you to the place where your flesh is sacrificed in Spirit and in Truth.”
I know that to get there I’m going to have to embrace the pain of potential, the feeling that I’ve wasted a life. I’m going to look for validation where there is none, only to be directed back to the arms of the Father.
Every failure is going to bring me closer to the place of not thinking. Then all that is left will be worship.
I’m not fully understanding of what that place will look like, but I know it’s coming. I just have to "fail up” and when I get there, remember that pain is the goal, and meaning is the outcome. I’ll climb back down and try again.
Sincerely Yours,
The Paraprosdokianist
